Feel like a Hangover

Ok dudes..it's been so long since i made an entry.. so here's one.. despite me having so much time..i still couldn't muster the will-power to sit down and type it..

Everyday has been a living hell.. not because it's burning in my house.. it's the feeling of unemployment that burns.. and it's burns of 1st degree too. My brother..oldest one has stopped working for a couple of months and i've ORD-ed for some time already. It's been escalatingly hard to find a decent admin post so i've opened more options with being a waiter. With no cash flow in the house, life's been quite horrendous cus my parents have been grumpy and i have a freakin driving test/ lessons to pay for. Oldest brother seems to piss me off lots and lots too. He just plays games 24-7.. and doesn't lend a hand in the housework..he's juz damn useless in the house..

I've been just at home..not slacking.. weird..i've been just playing lots of classical music..seemed to have lost quite some touch.. but i'm getting better at flowery scales..and embellishments.. have been thinking alot about cards and finding some answers to some thoughts..meaning i've been playing with my cards quite alot.. i've come up with some new ideas..and i really need to practice them and audience test too.. not to mention keeping up with my flourishes.. so..guess...it's juz magic and music i'm working on..

i've also been reading lotsa econs.. the demand and supply theories and ceteris paribus..haha... all the opportunity cost and all la..kenneth will get bored...hahaha...

i got to know a freaking cool stage magician ...singaporean..by the name of KiKi Tay...he's a friend of my team mate...Huron.. and also i've met a Swedish Magician who has won lotsa awards.. he dropped by Singapore and Huron hosted him...a session was arranged with him so dat he could show some ideas to us and we could exchange pointers.. he comes up with ideas damn quickly and can even present it at such professionalism and such a smoth pace...really amazing shit he displayed...and he truly inspired me with some of his logics...anyways..i had a part in taking him around to eat and all..

even though i am broke...i guess i exhausted all my little savings i had..

so dat concludes my time spent this week..

i'm less depressed now i guess...cus Huron and some other magicians kind of cheered me up..

i was sick on sunday...and cudn't join kenny and malik...for dota

everyday i pray ...wud be a better day i guess..

-Elvin