The Awakening

The 5am talk with Melia and Luke this morning has hammered home the most potent imapct on my life since the new year has commenced. It is bloody ironic that the process of reviewing Luke's life-impacting dilemma has led me to realize all this stuff. Indeed, the conversation has impelled me to conduct a series of introspections and I feel that I've been enlightened with new perspectives in life. Suddenly I realize that all this while I've been thinking on a different spectrum as many others who are probably gonna succeed in life. I've been viewing and leading my life under this yoke of sloth, passivity and inaction, the lack of ambition and illogical fear of hard work. All this time, I've been deceived by my own sense of warped logics and justifications that constantly lie to me into perceiving myself as a success and harbouring a cocky persuation of a bright future that will be achieved through innate finesse and perhaps a series of fortunate events. I've always looked to the easiest way out and maximisation of personal utility. I've never really believed that effort is more or less commensurate to success. For the record, these self-deceptions and insane delusions have been discarded as of now. The lies must stop.

I definitely owe myself this responsibility to start working on maximising my potentials, extirpate the mental fetters that have enslaved my mind for a decade and break out of my comfort zones to plunge into the deep of unchartered waters. I'm seriously ashamed that all this time I've been encaged in this dungeon of self-denial and I'm appalled at why this never ocurred to me. Well, better late than never. A fresh start in the year of the piggy. Whatever it is, I better pass the law interview next week. Wish me luck. Then again, I don't need luck. Haha!

Justin