Interlude

Something to spread the christmas cheer...

The past few weeks whizzed past in a flurry of presentations, papers and more recently, revision, leaving behind in my mind a residual blur of things occurred. During the short interim wedged between the conclusion of my revision and my impending stats paper (something I don't particularly like and am not particularly good at) tomorrow, I've decided to interject with this entry cos firstly, I aint got nothing to do, and secondly it's been some time since I last did.

During the past week of study leave, I've had ample time to think about life. To me, christmas is really the best time of the year and I can't think of a season I enjoy more than christmas. In fact I love it so much that the anticipation of christmas is indeed comparable to the real thing itself. My christmas tree is up and and when I look at the lit up tree decked with the ornaments and all, I simply can't help but grin to myself. It's inexplicably therapeutic gazing at the christmas tree. After indulging myself night after night looking at my tree and thinking of the sumpteous christmas dinner that I'm gonna share with a few of my closest church friends, I suddenly felt guilt-stricken. Amidst all the joyous festive mood and the feasts and presents that await, there are humans beings out there who spend their life waiting for a glimpse of that adorned christmas tree, that morsel of honey-baked ham, that little present that would mean nothing to us. These are humans with an equal right to life and its abundance of resources as you and I. And I somehow felt guilty for having what they don't. I somehow felt that I'm having this abundance in life at the cost of theirs. Looking deeper into that, I realize that that's not the case. I feel guilty cos I'm not doing what I can to get that smile on their faces. I've been a selfish bastard who seldom lifts a finger to reach out to those in need of that christmas joy in their hearts. I hope that one day these rueful words will translate into action...

I'm gonna have a last scan thru my stuff now before the big paper tomorrow -after tomorrow the bane of my first term will be out of my life, hopefully for good! On a merrier note, merry soon-to-be christmas to all amigos and good luck for your exams!

Justin