Art and Music

Hey peeps, it's been a long time since i last added an entry eh? After much of kenneth's persuasion i finally gotten the reins of my "will of a jellyfish" or kenneth's termed "slothful nature" and kicked it to a corner of my room. Thus, this entry exists. For how long, i do not know though. You guys must most probably be wondering "why the fark is Elvin so quiet these days?" and why i haven't whipped up any unbelievable stuff yet. Well, work at the bank is really very tedious and kind of brainless. It's very very very time consuming because every assignment given to you means extra careful checking and meticulous calculations because they mostly belong to the VIP clients.
the people at work are utmost boring, due to the lack of adventure and their lack of will to struggle for excellence or wadever they believe in. Perhaps wadever they have believed in has long vanished after many years of working and they now believe they juz wanna slack in the office and wait for the end of every month..like the NS regulars (just dat they wait for the 10th). They do not spend time doing things they like or want but instead complain of sever fatigue, which i do agree is tiring but there is the willpower we all possess which we all agree can be stretched far beyond the limits that we can ever imagine.
They were pretty shocked at the fact that i rush home to play the piano because i really wanna achieve some form of musical escalation and not be stagnant) and also at the fact that i practice my magic and cards till late at night. I believe there's a passion we all have for something/ someone/ anything. Which in my case i have discovered that passion is the most important aspect in whatever we do. If we have not passion but just an idea to be able to do something just for the sake of doing it, then it has achieved nothing for itself. I mean, our abilities are far numerous and we are the limiting factor to wadever we can do. isn't this true? pure sacrifice and sheer determination to excel spells it all for people at the zenith of their careers. I believe it's often mistaken as an obsession but it is really not if u enjoy every moment of doing something u really wanna do in the pursuit of making it excellent and perfect (in the process it becomes an art) . In this aspect of the arts, music or any hobby. could be a sport. a game. anything. seriously, i've never realised that there are so many billions of things to do under the sun and it's a sheer sin to complain that i'm bored. In fact, it's juz the mind being submissive to the laziness that's been embedded over the years which is accumulating like a blocked artery.
lately i've been repeatedly listening to lots of piano concertos and i agree that the piano is by far the most difficult instrument to master. It has become a great challenge to allocate the amount of energy to put into each depression of the keys juz to make the music sound more pleasant as individual notes played on the piano rather than the whole piece. Which actually means u can make even a short phrase of 10 notes sound so brilliant instead of playing a whole song! now that is pure skill. and to make it consistent.. purely discipline..to juz sit for an hr or so..to play juz 10 notes.. but at the end of it..the feeling of being able to achieve something.. is worth every minute and moment.. perhaps u might think.. i'm not so musically inclined and therefore this doesnt apply to me..but well..anything that u do in pursuit of excellence becomes an art.. even in fighting.. dat's y u have Sun tzi's Art of War..

Well.. even in cards i guess..i've shifted my focus away from magic to flourishes..because i felt that without proper technical mastery in card handling, it's not very impressive to perform magic just yet..and to develop and carve out the edges of my style is yet another feat to accomplish. Thus the shift. To provied technical excellence and style definition.. buying myself time..

Well, i'm glad that u guys are very avid readers and very learned enough to understand many things.. because people at work do not understand even simple daily conversations and the words i use. it has become such a dread to talk to them that i have to put my lousy knowledge of chinese into use. Albeit they all find it equally hard to understand what i'm saying. So either way..i'm not clearly understood most of the time which drove me into eternal silence whenever they held conversations. i'd juz sit and listen, well of course unless i'm fooling their asses.anyway..i've quite alot of malay colleagues.. and the young people working there (in our generation) are mostly chinese speaking. It's so difficult to even speak english to them.. and they'll convert wadever i'm saying to chinese..damn weird.. and they are always talking abt mundane stuff like prices of clothing, wad to eat.. and they always ask me abt my hobbies..why the hobbies i have are so different from other people.. perhaps their definition of other people are those confined to the working adults in the office or perhaps their friends who most probably are people who dare not try out new things or dare not believe in wad they can do before trying. And i guess it's pretty much juz us singaporeans. We are so caught up with society and fail to realise that there are other things we can do besides making money and comparing wealth. besides the society we live in also brought us up in this way.. why i can say dat so confidently is because abt 3/4 of the people in the workplace are always talking abt it..and since the vast majority are people in this category..it is quite substantial. Our country doesn't do enuff to support the arts.. and they heavily rely on the people to push up the publicity. they think the esplanade itself can do wonders juz by spending some money in building it. The people try..but they realise the industry has it's doors closed. Even in the media.. it's so bad..the situation here..the awareness..the people..the efforts.. even if we do so much..we still have barely enuff to eat..not to mention spend on other commodities..and most of the time we are forking the money out of our own pockets only to end up with the government's treasury. So in short..we are spending so that the nation can use our money meant for supporting the industry...for other purposes..

i can't really remember what i wrote before the entry was deleted by mistake..haha.. but it certainly had another half to it..perhaps i'll continue another time..

thanks for ur time spent reading this..

god bless..

-Elvin